There is something I have learned about myself as a media practitioner, that makes me feel a bit uneasy but I think it is relevant to my professional development to mention it here. I know I can be a good crew member, and I can be a good Producer or Assistant Director, but I am still nowhere near the skills and attitude needed to be a Director. This is something that has come up in other projects, as well as the most recent one I am doing for Fresh@CU. My task is to produce, direct and edit a promotional video, only using additional crew, and I find it hard to get into the right attitude for being the Director in the project. I found it challenging to talk to crew members with confidence, and to not sound too harsh. I also find it hard to work on the overall concept of the video, and keep finding myself concerned with details when the bigger picture is not yet clear to me. Maybe I put unnecessary pressure on myself, but I do feel unconfident as Director, and feel there is more I need to learn and incorporate in my professional practice until I can do it well.